Closing the book, putting down the pen.

Assalamualaikum, g'day to anyone who reads this.

I haven't written anything since who knows when. At first I counted the days, finding inspirations on what to write, thinking that I might help, or make the slightest change, or just, write something random. After a while, the vibe disappeared. As if it doesn't matter anymore. No it's not depressing, it's natural, I guess.

With ending this blog, I know it's more than a blog that I'm closing.

To someone I doubt I'll be able to talk to ever again;

I don't know what happened, I couldn't capture the last images of our conversation. I guess somewhere between then and a more recent then, we parted ways. I'm not asking to turn the clock backwards to the time before it all started, I'm just, sorry. I guess I have come to realize I'm not a good part of your life, and that I deserve what happened (don't we all?). I blame myself, for all that happened, for not being a good friend, a good..anything for that matter. Not a day goes by without me telling myself that I'm not a good person, for letting someone down. I hope you don't feel the same about yourself. I wouldn't anyone to live with that feeling.

I can't say I know everything, but I know partly what has happened. I'm not upset, I just want things to end mutually. I respect your every decision, because I know what kind of person you are. Truly, all I request is that you explain what happened. I want to understand. Is it that you see me as a liar? as a disappointment? as someone who is bad for you? A word.

I hope wherever you are, whoever you are with, you're happier now than before. And that your every step brings you to closer to His blessing. You're a wonderful person, and have helped me plenty through a lot of things.

No more poems, no more ideas, no more writing. I'm ending everything. I tried to kick start writing again once, didn't go so well. Figured as much.

Assalamualaikum, goodbye.
Hafidz Iddin

Moving Away

Somewhere about a year ago, or something. I gave up on blogging, partly because I can only go as far as talking to myself, about my daily routines, and my thoughts on stuff, to myself. And, to get away from something. I wanted to come back, so I'll probably be making a new blog somewhere else. I'll update later when it's started.

Goodbye~