"When you need for me, I'll be there, whenever I can. Whether you notice or not, I'll be there. And if you choose to walk away, not even for a moment will I stand in your way.
The pain grew stronger, with your every step out of my life. My love for you never bloomed a day dimmer than the days before, but 'twas your choice to leave.
I sense my presence to you has become obsolete, thus I withdraw myself. Reluctantly. So farewell, love. May you be blessed with the one happiness you deserve."
That explains it, I'm not good with love.
I am afraid my heart will be engulfed by my ego--my nafs. To others, it would seem like I push away the people I love most. I fear that our actions today will be the cause of our future to perish. Worse, to indulge in it. I try and I try.
And to others, it would seem like I let go too quickly. I will not, restrain you from doing what you think is best for you, in some cases, leaving me. I, too think that you deserve better than me.
And to others, I seem like the biggest douche. Hearing it from my friend, I guess it should be true...
People know too little of me, and I know of the world far too little..
I wish to learn the ways around it, building the 'key' that will open the one door we all wish to go through..
That someday, I would take you by the hand, and walk you through it. InsyaAllah..
~Hafidz Iddin
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