Swinging With the Beats

Come to think of it. I miss dancing.

When I was in form 2, one of my seniors introduced me to breakdancing. He taught me a trick, and I got excited over it. Of course, that trick was the basic of the basics. In other words, not something you can impress the girls with. Not that it matters. I never really got the hang of it, because of my studies. My commitment for it has its ups and downs. So I, never improved much. When I was commited, I would practice every evening, bruising my back, shoulders, arms, etc. It hurts, I admit. But it was that moment, your attempt to do a trick, after countless failures, and suddenly-- you hit it. It felt, amazing. All those pains just--disappear.

So anyway, ever since I started, I was pretty much alone. Two years later, I joined one of my seniors' dance crew, Kuntaw Fatakie (don't ask what it means). I was the backup, though. Back then I was under  strict supervision by my youth cadets teacher, so breakdancing then was kinda an 'underground' thing. I never performed. Just practiced with them. Like I said,  I was  never that good.

Then in my senior years in high school, I was  seventeen. And my  friend auditioned for a talent show for our school's annual dinner. It wasn't grand, but there would be local popular guest artists, fancy dining (so to say), and whatnot. So my friend passed the preliminary round, and managed to put himself in the finals list. But he was told he shouldn't performed solo, as it would look, spontaneous, unchoreographed. Two days before the show, he asked me to join him. And that was it. My one hit performance. A duet, with another guy. Luckily it wasn't ballroom dancing.

This was a shot from the performance. Totally not gonna put the video of the performance here. NEVARR!

 And look! We got runner up, and most popular performance :D the winner was a chinese girl with an amazing voice. And that was me, lol SWAG much? It was my dark days. Haha

And when I got to college, all of that ended. Just like that. To be frank, I miss it. Not just the dancing, but the old me. I never did it for any girl, not for fame (maybe a little bit, when I joined the talent show, forced to btw), but it was all for fun. It didn't keep me astray from fulfilling my obligations. So yeah. I'm considering of getting back to it, hopefully stay with it, and not lose grip of what truly matters. And maybe, just. maybe, I could do good with it. You never know, right?

I feel like reverting back to the old me. I shouldn't have people looking up to me like an 'imaam' or 'ustaz', or making up 'perfect' images of me, when I am nothing like that. I know what I am, and that  is not me. I always say be what you wanna be, just make the best out of it. S'long as you don't throw yourself in a big can of mess, and always call for the good, so be it.

-Hafidz Iddin (DZ)